Hostile Wildlife

Finally, it is nice enough to go outside and be in the fresh air.
I want to walk. I want to work on the yard.
And everywhere there are bees, wasps, and just hostile wildlife that I am highly allergic too.
I sprayed the bushes, the windows, every nook I could find that they would want to build a nest.
But I couldn't sit out on either my front porch or my back patio because there were so many of them.
It sucked!

I'm going to have to spray again tonight since it rained again.
I just can't have wasps, bees, and the like building nests around the house, mailbox, and bushes.
I get stung and it is bad!!!!
The neighbor kid mowed on Wednesday and by Saturday it didn't even look like he mowed at all.
I have a dandelion sanctuary growing in my yard.
I think they are beautiful, but there was almost 1 bee per dandelion.

The dog kept chasing them.
I kept telling her stop, bad bug.
She just looked at me, like I can get it.
Last year she stepped on a bee and got stung in her paw.
Poor thing kept limping around licking her paw.

I can't spray my whole yard.
I am going to go this weekend and see if I can put something on the grass to kill the dandelions.
Something that the dog won't try to eat.
I might have to keep her off of our grass a couple of days while it works on the dandelions.
I just want to enjoy my yard without fear of being swarmed!

Three Shots Today, Sucky Friday

dentist gave me 2 shots in my mouth. I just now was able to eat. It took 3 hours for the shot in my lower right side of my mouth to wear off.

then at the doctor, i got a cortizone shot into my left shoulder tendon.

i'm exhausted. and it started raining while i was walking the dog. so now i'm sweaty and wet, which just makes me feel dirty.

but my should is feeling better and it is friday.
i'm trying to be a positive person.
it is hard on a day like today.

wow, it is really really going to storm.

Day 19 of no tv challenge

life is good. tv is so not necessary to every day living. now i need to bring my kid around to that and i can save $50 a month. now giving up the dr. pepper not so easy. we went one day and my kid comes down stairs and says she's got a headache from all the days without soda pop. i had to point out to her it had been less then 24 hours since we last had some pop. she's like that's it and i was like yup!!!

i have begun the no soda pop challenge fresh this morning. after sleeping the entire weekend with brutus the english bulldog and sophie the puggle, i am sleep deprived. i had a 4 hour round trip drive back home for my baby cousins 4th birthday and needless to say i needed the soda pop to stay awake to drive.

i did not know an english bull dog made so much noise. there are sounds that i have no idea how to describe. he even made a noise that sounded like the velociraptors in jurassic park!!! but he's so cute doing it!!! at one point, at 2AM sophie popped her head up, looked at him and looked at me, like shut him up! we all got up and took a break outside. every night he stayed with us we got up at least twice between midnight and 7am.

last night was the first night we didn't have him since thursday and sophie and i were out by 9:30 and we didn't get up once!!!
dogs are cute for a reason, it's so we don't give up on them when they drive us crazy, it's all part of God's plan :) or the Dog's plan????

Adventures in Dog Sitting

Brutus the english bulldog has joined us until Sunday. He is so ugly he is cute. I've been humped, scratched, licked, nibbled, and nose rubbed. He's whizzed on one of my flowers outside so much the leaves are weighted down to the ground with puddles on them. I think I'll let that mess evaporate in the heat. Can you febreze outside?

He's too funny. He keeps sniffing our puggle, Sophie. He keeps running into the walls. He makes so many noises. Snorts, grunts, sniffling, snotting, and some I can't even describe. Great, now Sophie has decided she like his very expensive all natural food and is eating it!

Sophie even had to sniff the bird seeds this morning to see if they were something she wanted to eat and they weren't. She was throwing a fit because I was feeding the birds and not her.

What is he doing now? I think he has an itch but can't reach it. He's trying to get to his hind quarters but his head is too big. I think his head weighs like 7 pounds. He's staring at me now. Well I'm off to figure out how to scratch Brutus' itch. I'd never do this for a man. That is for darn sure!

I think this is going to be a long weekend!

day 3 of the no tv challenge

i find it easier to not watch tv when my kid is not home. she is working today and tomorrow, so i have the house to myself. i was sitting on the patio enjoying the beautiful rain free day. the dog was rolling in the grass. i'm listening to my music and relaxing.

the laundry is going and i've already taken the dog on a nice walk. this is freedom! today is full of promise. the house is quiet and i feel calm.
i am loving my tv free life!!!

wow, more rain

the rain keeps coming.
i've had to empty sophie's baby pool 4 times now.
my daughter started to complain saturday that it was too hot.
i told her to shut her mouth and be happy it isn't raining and cold.
she jinxed us, because yesterday the rain started and it is still going strong this morning.

people are never happy.
the grass is always greener on the other side.
why can't we just enjoy the moment?

i even got a little sunburn saturday.
i had sunblock on, it's in my moisturizer, and still got red.
the sun and i have not had a pretty relationship for the past 10 years.
the older i get the less time i spend outside.
so i burn alot faster now then when i was a kid.
and the sunburns are more severe, one year i got blisters!!
that really hurts.

i tried to buy some flowers saturday morning to plant in my little patch of dirt next to my huge concrete patio.
i was in the gardening section outside of the store for less then 10 minutes when i had to go inside because i went into a full blown allergy attack.

my eyes kept itching and watering for another 30 minutes inside the store.
i also kept sneezing!
what is the point of taking an allergy med every morning for the past 3 months if i can't even pick out flowers????

i guess i will just try again this weekend and take the kid so we can speed flower shop! that will be interesting.

yo yo weather sucks

last week we hit the high 80's, yesterday the high was 48 :(

i'm sick again, sore throat, fever, headache, and i hurt like a truck ran over me.

i hate this yo yo weather.

it's been raining non stop for like a month.
even the dog is getting sick of it.
whenever the rain stop she runs to where her leash is, like she is saying, hurry walk me before the rain comes back.

we are supposed to get more rain and be back in the 80's again by the weekend. i can't remember how it feels to feel the warmth of the sun upon my face. no wonder i have to take a vitamin D supplement.

this weather isn't helping me feel any less depressed.
rain, go away!!!!

Sophie does not like power tools!

dad stopped by after going to a gun show nearby, and put up curtain rods for me. he brought his power drill. he was using the power drill to put up the curtain rods in the living room over by the couch, sophie was watching him sitting on my kid's lap. dad turned around and pointed the drill at the sophie, and the poor dog, jumped a whole foot backwards!!!

i didn't even know a dog could move like that. she ran over to my side of the couch and tried to get under me, it was funny for us, but not so much for her. i guess we know now to keep power tools away from her because they freak her out!!!

she got to digging out in the dirt today too. i put some yard tiles down to walk on in the dirt patches and she dug under one. i couldn't figure out what she was doing. i think she was hoping there was some kind of treat under the tile. she got under it, stuck her nose in the hole she made, sniffed and walked off. now i got to put all the dirt back, silly puppy!!!

well it certainly did not get into the mid 70's today and it rained too!!! but got alot done inside and out. sophie's baby pool is in place and her lounge chair is set up. we sat outside for awhile before and after it rained. she sat on her lounge chair with her eyes closed, but her nose was twitching like crazy.

i think we both could use a nap!!!

Bliss

life is good, right now, in this moment, there is no fear, no hate, no insecurites, i just am, breathing, existing, peaceful, calm, content, still, and blissful.

i've had a headache since friday. fell asleep last night at 8pm, got up at 11pm, 3am, and 7am, had to put ice on my neck then heat on my back. but i went back to be around 8am and slept till 11am and my headache was gone.

now i have a pot of chili simmering on the stove, the dog is asleep after a long walk, and i'm listening to music, sitting here, watching birds outside play.

life is only as complicated as we make it. i don't need alot. and it is days like today that remind me to appreciate all that i do have. in this moment, i am content, ache free, and at peace with the world. bliss!!!

finally headache free

Thank GOD!!! Woke up this Sunday morning headache free at 4AM sneezing my head off. I guess whatever was stuck up in my head came out my nose. totally gross and disgusting, but what sweet relief.

the weather is going to be sweet today. i think i'll take Sophie to the dog park this afternoon. I can't over do it or my headache might come back, but she's such a good pup. She loves seeing all the birds out. She gets so excited and forgets she's attached to me via the leash and nearly yanks my arm out of the socket to chase them birdies.

she's so silly, thinking she's a bird dog, when i know she's a couch laying, pizza eating, squeaky ball dog!

got my fingers crossed i am on the road to recovery!!!

Happy New Flu Year!!!

first i'd like to thank the rain showing up right around midnight so all the jack holes with their fireworks couldn't light them, thank you rain, take a bow. now i'd like the rain to stop, since it's been going for almost 8 hours now and my dog won't pee in it. she literally sniffs everywhere, shakes off her coat, comes in the house and pees on the carpet near the door. she'll pee in snow, but not rain. she's such a goofy girl.

my aches and pains are not as bad, but i'm throwing up snot now. but good new it's clear and white, so no infection. bad news is of course it hurts like hell to puke up snot, so my throat is on fire. plus, i pee myself a little when i sneeze real hard, puke, or just laugh to the point i can't breathe. so i have to have protection on all day today so i don't pee all over the furniture. i feel so old. this is all my kid's fault, i gave birth to her all naturally and they cut me so i wouldn't tear which weakened the muscles. i am doing those excerises for my vagina, but it's helped little. i'm not even 40 and i'm back in stupid diapers.

happy fracking new year to me :(

fluzzy woozy new year

i have the FLU!!! this major major sucks. cuz once again bret can't come to see me cuz he could get sick this time. and i've not seen him for 2 weeks now. it's bumming me out dudes. i am totally wasted on nyquil. sneezing is annoying, coughing is excruciating, but nothing sucks the worst then explosive diarrhea!!!

another new year with no one to kiss at midnight, i'm sick of it, literally this time. but at least i have the dog, she loves me, can dogs get the flu?
i hope not, sophie have diarrhea would be BAD!!!

happy new year!!!

It's been awhile

i can't really say i've not blogged cuz i've been busy. i've been more in a blue funk really. i get excited about christmas, realize how broke i am, and how much i miss my mom, and how my relationship isn't exactly what i hoped it would be, and i get depressed, sit on the couch all day and star out the window!

yup, exciting right?

but now i'm getting sick, so i'll have a real reason to mop and not just the emotional baggage that i carry around in my head. sore throat, stuffy nose, and a headache, all right before the weekend. and i have alot to do this weekend too, more then the standard cleaning that i put off until sunday at 6pm to do. gab's got work. i got to prep for visitor's next weekend. the washer is fixed, so laundry must be done, work won't like it if i come in naked.

so much to do, there's barely any food in the house, i got bills to pay, the dog needs bathed, brushed and fought with to get her toe nails clipped. that's like trying to brush the teeth on a alligator. she doesn't like it and goes wild like a bucking bronco when you bring out the toe nail clippers. i could pay someone to do it, but you did read how broke i am up above right???

tis the season to lose your mind, fa la la la la f*ck!!!

foolish thoughts

i am having silly thoughts and dreams about falling in love again.
i'm sure i'll screw something up, it's not like i can ever get it right.
but i just like the idea of happily ever after.
the end to lonely nights in a bed with a dog that can annoy sometimes.

ugh, last night i opened the window since it's so cool, and she spent the night barking suddenly at any little noise. i was not please with sophie at all.
she's all happy go lucky this morning and the bags under my eyes are larger then usual. tonight, the window stays shut, and i don't care if i have to turn the air on to get thru the night, when it's 40 degrees outside. i can't take another sleepless night. i seldom sleep thru the night as it is. having to tell the dog to shut up, stop, be quiet off and on for the whole night sucks.

she is an excellent warning system, but considering i don't need to be alerted to the night crickets, it's annoying.

i'm taking a nap tonight or going to be early!!!

i fell down

wow, i was hoping one day i'd outgrow my accident prone clumsy self. but i guess not. 5am today i got up, went potty, brought the dog downstairs so she could do the same, and when i stepped out onto the patio to pick up her leash, while i was holding her by the collar, i tripped over my own foot and fell HARD!!!!

The dog ran off. I landed on the my right knee and elbow, rolled and ended up on by back near the grass with my feet in the dirt on the side. and the worse thing was i was in my pj's and i had no underwear on, so my ass was cold, since my pj's was a pull over with no bottoms. ugh!!!

so i managed to finally get up and the dog is NO WHERE in sight. I call for her, nothing. Great!!! I come in wipe up some of the blood off my knee and elbow, take my medicine, drink some water and wonder what the hell to do about the dog.

i go out back and whistle and call for her -- NOTHING!!!

i go out front and whistle and call for her -- i hear the jingle of her license on her collar, thank God!!!

She actually comes to me. She was one front porch over, sniffing. She came right to me, and let me pick her up!!!! and we came in the house. Needless to say, I was so proud of her, so i gave her part of a cookie for being such a good girl.

We go upstairs and wake up my daughter to see if she knows where the first aid kit is, she doesn't and she's bitchy about me waking her up.

I go in my bathroom to clean my scrapes that look alot like the ones I used to get when i was 7 - 10 years old and i'd fall off my bike. gab brings me a small first aid kit with band aids and cleaning alcohol wipes.

i'm finally in bed, ready to try to go back to sleep since it's almost 6 am now.
and sophie is still wound up. so i get up to check on her and she pee'd and pooped. i guess she was too shaken up when she was outside to bother going to the bathroom. but i can't be mad at her, this one was all my clumsy ass fault.

so i clean up her mess and we get back in bed and she steps on my knee, ouch!!!!

but i must off fallen back to sleep cuz the next thing i know it's 7:45 and the alarm is going off. now my hip and should are throbbing and my scrapes have turned red. so i clean them with the alcohol wipes, talk about burn baby burn!

and come downstairs and sign on to work, and very CAREFULLY but the dog on the leash.

i know i grumble at the office and to anyone who will listen about how accident prone my daughter is, but i can't do that anymore, because she's just like her mother!

Sophie the Puggle is For Sale

On a coffee mug, thong, t-shirt, or calendar that is. check her out at http://www.cafepress.com/mrpuggle/7213481

she looks too cute. I know she's just a dog, but dammit, she's my dog and I love her.

makes excellent x-mas gifts.

Hot and Muggy

It's been hotter and muggier then TN on a August Day lately. I was hoping last nights storms would break it up, but nope. It's going to be 91 today and it is already very muggy outside. No dog park today. I don't need the dog to be covered in mud. I have so much to do. Cleaning, grocering, cooking, putting away, laundrying, dogging, i know some of these aren't actual verbs but i'm feeling lazy.

gotta decide if i want to up for another 13 months here at the apartment and take a $10 rent increase or switch month to month and get a $50 rent increase. If I actually had money saved towards moving I'd go month to month and find me a little house to rent with a yard for little ms. spoiled puppers dog. but since my bank account hovers between 0 and less then 0, I think I'll reup for 13 months and see if I can save the $1500 that I need to move. I won't be holding my breath. I seldom hang on to money long enough to do anything useful with it.

Plus, gab's college is coming back up in august. we still have recv'd no word on her financial aid package. this makes me nervous. tuition went up, i hope the financial aid did as well. plus there will be books and supplies to buy. at least this year we have alot of the stuff she already needs as far as towels and bedding go. she wants new clothes but i don't think that is going to happen.

well off to the shower then off to the grocery store. oh money, y do you leave me so quickly. u never stick around to play. it's all business for you. i miss my discretionary spending.

sweet internet you are back

the wireless router crapped out. after spending way too long with the support on the phone, i just called and asked for a new wireless router. the guy came this morning and tried to fix the old one but agreed it was a lost cause, so now i have a new wireless router and I AM BACK online!!!

Did you miss me?

Of course not, no one reads the shit I write. But I take no offense, well, at least today I don't, tomorrow it might just hurt my feelings. but in this very second of this very moment I am doing okay.

I walked the dog. Work wasn't too busy. Life is good. Tomorrow is pay day. the kid wants to get advance tickets for the twilight 3rd movie midnight showing, which means i'll have to take a nap, but i will probably still fall asleep during the movie. i don't find twilight to be very stimulating. i just don't. i couldn't even make it through the books. i got my daughter's 4th book and read the last 2 chapters. It's cheating, I know, but it's how I roll.

so life is good today. and i really can't ask for much more then that.

O the humanity!!!

Random thoughts and quotes...

all hatred begins with a seed of fear.

do dogs really love us or just love that we feed them and pet them. And isn't that what all love is, attention, dedication, and simple pleasures. So if we loved our loved ones the way we love our dogs, would the world be a happier place?

ranch dressing mixed with sour cream put on pizza = FANTASTICALLY YUMMY!!!

pedicures are great, not only do i get a foot rub, snazzy toe nail polish, and my ingrown big toe dug out, but i get to sit for an hour and not think about a damn thing, that is priceless!!!

summer = sunburn :(

i always thought i'd be famous for something stupid, but i'm not worried, i still have time to fuck up and make national news headlines!

i think about food more then sex, but sex is a very close 2nd.

People suck!!!

I'm so annoyed right now. I wonder why people live in apartments if they can't grasp the common space concept. I'm walking my dog back behind my apartment on a retaining wall area that goes down to the end of the row of our building. Since I didn't unlock the back door before we left I have to walk down to the end and around the side. No big deal.

The lady at the end opens her front door and starts yelling at me that I'm not allowed to walk there, that's her grass, I can't let me dog poop there.

#1 - Sophie did NOT poop!!!!

#2 - If Sophie had pooped I'd pick it up, I ALWAYS pick her poop up, that's why I carry the little plastic grocery bags.

#3 - The side of the building is NOT her GRASS!!!! It is a common area.

I told her these 3 things and she kept yelling at me. She yelled. "I watched you from the upstairs window." Big whoop!!! The kids walk back there, her kids walk back there, everyone walks back there, it's COMMON area. Sophie was never on her patio. Sophie has never pooped around her apartment. She then says, "I'll take this up to the office on Tuesday." I said, "Fine!!!"

I walk my dog ALL over the apartment complex. If she poops, I pick it up and throw it away. The main reason I picked this apartment complex was because of all the grassy areas for my dog to walk and play on. There are at least 15 dogs that I know about in this complex that could be pooping on "her" grass. This is sad, she needs to get a house.

I told Gab when Jeremy comes to fix the drain on Tuesday to talk to him about it or have him call me. He knows I always pick up after Sophie. And he knows I walk her everywhere just to get her exercise. The woman has lost her ever lovin' mind. I don't know what dog is crapping next to her door, but I hope it keeps crapping there, and she catches them and realizes it's not me and has to apologize.

What a horrible person? Doesn't even know me or bother to give me the benefit of the doubt. She just thought to herself, I'm going to yell at the 1st person I see with a dog, so I feel better!!!

I feel sorry for her.