back to the doctor

so it's back to the doctor in the morning, they should just put in a revolving door for me. this year has been insane with sickness. and it's really depressing me. so much now, i want an anti-depressant. but with all due consideration, my shoulder and knee are in a constant state of pain, and my headaches are endless. i did have 3 days in a row last week with no headache. i sneezed, coughed, and sniffled, but all the junk kept coming out onto the snot rag, so no headache!!!

i'm doing a whole bunch of nothing. i keep my knee up and iced. i icy hot my shoulder. i just want to sleep all through the night. i toss and turn to go to sleep, so it's around midnight before i'm out. then i wake up between 4-6am to pee and let the dog out to do the same. i wake up like i never slept and it's really starting to impact my ability to function. to say i am not firing on all cylinders is an understatement. i'm like fully loaded and half-cocked or is the half-loaded and fully cocked???

i can't even put a sentence together. sheesh!!!
tonight is it bed time yet?

Happy New Flu Year!!!

first i'd like to thank the rain showing up right around midnight so all the jack holes with their fireworks couldn't light them, thank you rain, take a bow. now i'd like the rain to stop, since it's been going for almost 8 hours now and my dog won't pee in it. she literally sniffs everywhere, shakes off her coat, comes in the house and pees on the carpet near the door. she'll pee in snow, but not rain. she's such a goofy girl.

my aches and pains are not as bad, but i'm throwing up snot now. but good new it's clear and white, so no infection. bad news is of course it hurts like hell to puke up snot, so my throat is on fire. plus, i pee myself a little when i sneeze real hard, puke, or just laugh to the point i can't breathe. so i have to have protection on all day today so i don't pee all over the furniture. i feel so old. this is all my kid's fault, i gave birth to her all naturally and they cut me so i wouldn't tear which weakened the muscles. i am doing those excerises for my vagina, but it's helped little. i'm not even 40 and i'm back in stupid diapers.

happy fracking new year to me :(