My Ass Got Fatter

i celebrated my kid's 21st birthday weekend, not in drink, but in food.
lots and lots of food.
we ate out all weekend.
we loved the cheesecake at the cheesecake factory.
my kid got her chipotle on, her fave.
and their was pizza and cake at her party.
it was a mellow family event.
all i did all weekend was eat and drive.

i put many miles on the car and 5 pounds on my body.
my ass got fatter.
it is weird how you lose weight and then when you gain some back it doesn't go back to the same places.
my tummy got a little rounder but my butt got HUGE!!!
so it is back to the program.
protein, veggies and fruits.
i go in a week to get my triglycerides, cholesterol, and vitamin d checked.
i'd hate to go back and have to be put back on meds cuz i can't keep the junk food out of my mouth.

i had a surprise though over the birthday weekend.
my 2nd ex-fiancee facebooked me and told me he was getting divorced.
i met him for breakfast on sunday.
he looks the same.
same smile, same brown eyes, he's filled out.
he was such a skinny thing back in the day.
it had been 18 years since we were a couple engaged.
we agreed we were both just really young.
we are talking and texting now.
i hope we can be friends.
i don't know if it'll ever be more then that.
but we still have some stuff in common as far as music and values.
it was good to talk to him.
he said i looked good and i was like he remembered me and that was a good thing.

this week my allergies have been kicking my butt.
but other then that we are back into our routine.
i know i'm so boring!
someone told me i was sexy, i think they were high :)
i've retired from dating.
doesn't mean i won't ever have sex again, cuz we all know you don't have to date to copulate ;)
i'm hoping for a quiet sunny weekend.
my kid is going home with one of her college friends.
i'm not completely broke, but i'm never rich.
everything is right where it should be and i can't complain.

The common cold

i've lost 5.5 pounds in the past six days thanks to the common cold.
i sleep then i sleep some more.
i've been eating chicken noodle soup and that's about it.
so now i'm back down to my pre-birthday pig out weight.
not the best way to accomplish it but very effective.
i still am sick, but feel much better.

i will be able to take my first pregnancy test sunday.
i got my fingers crossed that it's positive.
i've been very careful with the cold medicine i've been taking.
i don't want to hurt a baby if i'm with child.
even though robitussin and tylenol haven't helped at all.

today i got to run to the store.
there's no food in the house.
i got to get a few things.
my kid is back from school for 3 weeks on saturday.
we are going to drive each other crazy.
i know it's a short trip to drive me off the rails of the crazy train, but she knows my buttons and she pushes them with glee!

scott has been flirty.
somehow i think we are going to start having sex again.
i guess he really can't keep it in his pants.
thank God for that horny bastard!!!
he's coming over today and possibly tomorrow.
so if i'm not pregnant, he's still a viable baby sperm donation specialist.

i tired to eat oatmeal for breakfast.
it is just nasty.
i don't like oatmeal.
not even in cookies.
it's like jello or yogurt.
i don't care how healthy it is for me, i don't like it, yuck!!!
so the dog ate most of it and she enjoyed that!

Mr. Sun I am so pissed off at u right now

my vitamin d is still way too low. so now i have to take 1,000 units a day plus the 50,000 units weekly. and if in 3 more months it isn't normal i have to have a bone scan to see if my bones have begun to thin. that scares the crap out of me. i have been sitting out in the sun a 1/2 hour every day in the early evening exposing as much skin as i can, i have been walking out in the sun every day with as much skin as possible exposed and it only went up 3 points from last time. I am NOT happy with Mr. Sun right now.

I hate fish. doc recommended i start eating fish like catfish, salmon, tuna with oil, my face said it all, doc was like i know u hate to eat fish. i hate to smell them, let alone eat them. they are disgusting!!!! I can't even take fish oil, it makes me sick, gives me a headache afterwards. Can you be allergic to fish?

i got another prescription to pick up and i have to find a vitamin d supplement with the 1,000 units in it! if pizza had vitamin D in it, i'd be set!

15 days of blood

my period started july 28th and has continued, it stopped for a 1/2 day on august 1st and again on august 4th, but started again!!!

it just won't end. i am being weened off of medication and i think thata is the cause,but i think i'm going to call the ob/gyn tomorrow morning.

the bleeding is getting heavier and the cramps are getting more painful. i think my uterus is trying to escape!!!

it sucks to be female sometimes.

i have run out of pads twice. it's like the period that will not end, it goes on and on my friends!!!

harry potter at 12:10 AM, this is gonna be fun, if i stay awake

so my kid talked me into another midnight showing, this time for the last harry potter film, we are taking tissues, because we fully expect to cry.
the last midnight showing i went to was for the then latest release of the twilight series. i was showing my age man!!

i had my first red bull, and mr. bindi was created,
imaging this in a badly attempted porno style male french accent,
"hello, i am mr. bindi, and i'll be your straw this evening.
suck from me the juices and i will fill you up"

and it wasn't even a bindi straw :)

i might have to try monster drink tonight, i wonder what my hopped up but totally exhausted brain will create this evening. we shall see.
my kid is afraid and i am little afraid myself.
i don't do well when sleep deprived, staying up past 10 takes effort, especially since my meds are designed to help me get sleep.
i'll have to delay taking my meds, and that is risky for everyone, i am medicated for my own safety as well as the publics.

so exicited!!!

forgot to take meds this morning

i knew i forgot to do something this morning. i hate when my schedule and routine are messed with. getting up at 6 so i can go to work then the kid can take the car after dropping me off and she gets to work by 8 sucks.

i figured out by 9 what i forgot, my eyes were watering. i was sneezing. i had a headache and i hurt and ached. i forgot to take my morning meds. allergy pill, savella (fms) and my tryglceride med. it was an EXTREMELY LONG DAY!!!

i was working 7 - 4 and i told my boss, wow, i'm exhausted it must be close to 4 and he said no it's not even 2:30 yet!!!! These kind of days, where they go on forever, just suck.

i had to come home and take my day meds with my night meds. i laid down to just make sure, but i'm not hungry and now i'm not tired. so happy tomorrow is a work from home day!!!

a lull in the rain, finally!

it seems to have been raining now for a solid week. it was freezing cold too. but the rain has finally stopped, for now, and the temp seems to be hovering in the low 60's. so i got windows open, the heat off, and couch pushed over to the window, so the dog can sit on top of the couch and see all the little birdies fly around.

doc put me on a new med to try for my fms. savella, my insurance covers most of it, which is good, i couldn't find it on their drug list so i was worried, i know they don't cover lyrica at all. the pharmacy had to order it so it won't be in until tuesday, which is perfect, because the doc gave me a two week starter pack that increases your dose from 12.5 mg twice a day, to 25 mg twice a day, to finally 50 mg twice a day. So i got time! The doc did say it could take up to 2 months before the med gets in my system enough to make a difference. i hope it makes a difference.

my sleep pattern is totally jacked up. i'm falling asleep okay, but i wake up anywhere from 2am to 6am, and usually multiple times, and i got to put icy hot on my neck, shoulder, back, leg or hip, what ever is hurting worse. i haven't had a flair up this bad for almost 2 years and it's not letting me go either.

easter is tomorrow. this is where having a grown child makes all the difference. we are having fried ham and cheese sandwiches, mac n cheese, carrot sticks, and cupcakes for dessert. we are watching all harry potters back to back tomorrow up to her new 7th one part 1, and she got a solid cadbury milk chocolate money, an easter sock monkey, and a i-tunes card. there were reese's easter peanut butter eggs, but i ate those :( they are my crack, i don't like reese's pb cups, but u put that pb in eggs, x-mas trees, hearts, and/or pumpkins i cannot resist.

hope everyone has a happy easter!!!

O What a beautiful day!

spring is in the air, crazy happy madness everywhere!
getting urge to clean, must fight it!

wow, it is a nice day. to bad i'm chained to the work laptop due to system issues. i have to check it every couple of hours. so i can't go too far or stay gone too long. at least they didn't call me at 3am to bounce the application, my boss did that, but he leaves on 3/29 and my buffer is gone, so sad. next few months could be rough with an increased work load. that will make me cranky, which really isn't that hard to do.

so i'm watching the harry potter marathon, chilling, and i did a little cleaning. i need to get out into the garage and get through the last bit of crap from the move that never got put where it needs to go.

my kid is unenthusiastic about this, like i'm looking forward to it (sarcasm here people)

i have to take my kid to a therapist, and she's been prescribed zoloft. doc thinks she has an anxiety disorder and is possibly ocd. none of which surprises me. i'm bi-polar and have borderline personality disorder, her dad's side suffers from anxiety and ocd issues. i told her, did you really think with your DNA line you'd come out with zero mental issues, as if!!!

It could be worse. She just doesn't like be called crazy, which made me laugh. I'm so used to be called crazy it doesn't phase me anymore. I think she's just scared. But I knew this day would come, I've been seeing things for about 4 years now that have made me wonder, but if i brought up the subject she'd melt down faster then an overheated nuclear reactor. She did the same thing to the doc, but the doc wouldn't let her be about it.

Like I said the next couple of months should be real interesting, changes at work, both my kid and i medicated. yes, loads of fun, loads!!!!

medicated

well, nothing is infected, YET! but my throat is all red and irritated. doc gave me an anti-depressant that should help with my pain and sleep and depression. i think that's alot to expect of one medication. doc says if not better in 2-3 weeks then to come back in. my blood work showed improvements in my chlosterol and tryglcerides, but my vitamin D was low. so the doc gave me a vitamin d prescription as well. i have to take 1 vitamin d pill once a week for 12 weeks then go have blood drawn to see if it's working.

everyone is telling me just go out in the sun more, uh, what sun????
this winter has been dark, dreary, and mostly sunless. and march has been no better, we had snow on the ground friday, yesterday was cloudy, and today is cold and cloudy. i'd go out and get some sun if i ever saw any.

i am so ready for summer, but then i'll complain it's too hot!
i'm never happy with what i got.