a rough morning

well, i took a nap for like 2 hours before the movie. i felt like i'd been drugged, everything was fuzzy, and i felt numb, and my limbs did not want to move. the only seats we could find at the HP D2 movie were in the very first row, so i spent the whole movie trying to recline in a seat that doesn't recline. i enjoyed the movie, my kid was disappointed harry didn't wake up naked in kings cross station. she was hoping they'd keep that, but we were very pleased with the bellatrix and mrs. weasley battle. the death of voldemort wasn't as thrilling.

i was wide awake once the movie started. we got home around 3am, had to put the pup outside to do her business and then i finished the leftovers from olive garden where we had gone to dinner earlier. i fell right back to sleep, but i started waking up every 30 minutes looking at the clock starting at 6AM, so when the alarm finally went off at 7:50AM i felt hung over, but i'm working through it.

i felt like calling in sick, but i've been doing that alot lately. it's the stress and just because i'm feeling worn doesn't mean i'm sick. although, the number of my headaches has doubled. i don't have one right at the moment and this is the exception rather then the rule. it's been a rough morning, but i hope for a better evening. it is friday after all and i don't work this weekend, sweet!!!!

harry potter at 12:10 AM, this is gonna be fun, if i stay awake

so my kid talked me into another midnight showing, this time for the last harry potter film, we are taking tissues, because we fully expect to cry.
the last midnight showing i went to was for the then latest release of the twilight series. i was showing my age man!!

i had my first red bull, and mr. bindi was created,
imaging this in a badly attempted porno style male french accent,
"hello, i am mr. bindi, and i'll be your straw this evening.
suck from me the juices and i will fill you up"

and it wasn't even a bindi straw :)

i might have to try monster drink tonight, i wonder what my hopped up but totally exhausted brain will create this evening. we shall see.
my kid is afraid and i am little afraid myself.
i don't do well when sleep deprived, staying up past 10 takes effort, especially since my meds are designed to help me get sleep.
i'll have to delay taking my meds, and that is risky for everyone, i am medicated for my own safety as well as the publics.

so exicited!!!

30 days no TV challenge

wow, it's been 30 days since i challenged myself not to watch TV. Although I am unable to get rid of the TV completely, my kid refuses, and I still watch DVD's/Movies, I feel that I've kicked the sitting in the front of TV for hours just flipping the channels for no reason.

I've done scripture study. I sit outside when it isn't raining, which means not alot lately. I walk the dog more. I have a clean house. I have been cooking more. I don't feel like I'm missing anything. I never did watch reality shows. And scripted TV is becoming redundant. How many cop/forensic type shows are on TV right now?

TV shows have lost their appeal to me. I check the news, mostly the weather online. I do listen to my music alot. I play SIMS 3 or bejeweled twist. I find everything I need doesn't involve watching TV. I am going to go see the last harry potter movie! And we did buy the Donny Darko DVD, but I haven't watched it yet. Everyone is surprised I've not see that movie. I've heard of it, but just never bothered to watch it. My kid says I'm going to like it. I did like the remake of Mad World, the song, they did for that movie. That's on my ipod.

I've lost more weight. I had gained a little, but now i'm down to 219 pounds. I have no idea why. I am just not hungry. Maybe my lack of vitamin d is impacting my appetite. I don't know. I'm just not hungry and nothing sounds good. And when I do eat, I eat alot less now. It's weird.

a lull in the rain, finally!

it seems to have been raining now for a solid week. it was freezing cold too. but the rain has finally stopped, for now, and the temp seems to be hovering in the low 60's. so i got windows open, the heat off, and couch pushed over to the window, so the dog can sit on top of the couch and see all the little birdies fly around.

doc put me on a new med to try for my fms. savella, my insurance covers most of it, which is good, i couldn't find it on their drug list so i was worried, i know they don't cover lyrica at all. the pharmacy had to order it so it won't be in until tuesday, which is perfect, because the doc gave me a two week starter pack that increases your dose from 12.5 mg twice a day, to 25 mg twice a day, to finally 50 mg twice a day. So i got time! The doc did say it could take up to 2 months before the med gets in my system enough to make a difference. i hope it makes a difference.

my sleep pattern is totally jacked up. i'm falling asleep okay, but i wake up anywhere from 2am to 6am, and usually multiple times, and i got to put icy hot on my neck, shoulder, back, leg or hip, what ever is hurting worse. i haven't had a flair up this bad for almost 2 years and it's not letting me go either.

easter is tomorrow. this is where having a grown child makes all the difference. we are having fried ham and cheese sandwiches, mac n cheese, carrot sticks, and cupcakes for dessert. we are watching all harry potters back to back tomorrow up to her new 7th one part 1, and she got a solid cadbury milk chocolate money, an easter sock monkey, and a i-tunes card. there were reese's easter peanut butter eggs, but i ate those :( they are my crack, i don't like reese's pb cups, but u put that pb in eggs, x-mas trees, hearts, and/or pumpkins i cannot resist.

hope everyone has a happy easter!!!

completion

the move is officially over. the keys and garage door opener were handed in yesterday afternoon. now i got to wait to see how much it's going to cost me for "damage" which is another way of saying "we can tell you lived in the place" i hope it's not too much or it could seriously wreck some x-mas plans, but oh well, shit happens.

still got crap in the garage that needs put away. i'd like to be able to park in the garage by sunday. i hate parking outside, it's such a pain. i had to scrape the windows the other day. i do not like to do that. and my car is really old, so it needs babied to keep running. i cannot afford a car payment at the moment.

got our harry potter tickets for the ultra screen on sunday. but i didn't know my kid had a 1pm call in. she's going to ask at her saturday shift if they would please not need her. i told her i'm going to harry potter with or without her. sorry, but tickets bought online are non-refundable!

i have a bruise under my left big toe nail! must have dropped something on it or stubbed it while moving. i don't really remember anything major hitting my foot, but when moving at a frenzied pace you kinda suck it up and keep going. it really has bothered me the last couple of days tho, makes shoes hard to wear. it's a big bruise too, hope i don't lose my toe nail. i've done that before, my thumb, when i was little, and it's too gross.