Cramps and Boredom

well my female cycle was late and for some reason it has come with a fury.
i'm cramping, bleeding through pads, and i hurt like crazy.
i try all the pms pills but they don't help.
i have no appetite, no joy, no hope, no desire to move.
i just want to stare into the inside of my eyelids and not sleep.
i love this boredom because i choose it.

still no house.
we are on hold until the end of july.
i feel like goldilocks, this house is too small,
this house is too big, there's a basement, there's a funky smell, etc..
the one house we wanted we got outbid on, oh well.
maybe the summer we will have better luck and find that one house that is for us.

so today the big plan is to do laundry and be lazy.
i think i can do it!

My body is out of whack

I got a car tan, major sunburn on my left arm, should, and upper leg. I have a massive headache. I have been constipated for days. I had to wait until tonight to take a laxative cuz I can't run to the bathroom at work and stink it up or plug it up. But since I work from home on Thursday and Friday's I'll just stink up and plug up my own bathroom. I hate being plugged up. My nose is plugged up. My plumbing is plugged up. It makes me cranky and miserable. Plus, I am PMS'ing.

This really really sucks. I hate sitting on the toilet for an hour and either nothing comes out at all, or rabbit turds come out. I feel like a literally have a corn cobb stuck up my ass. I seldom get constipated, and considering the amount of cheese I consume that is really saying something. My dad thinks I have nacho cheese instead of blood in my viens. Cheese is my fave food. I put it on everything. I have had to switch to reduced fat. I can't eat fat free, it's so gross. But I cannot live without cheese.

I just remembered I have leftover pizza in the fridge, YUMS!!!

I'm too old for zits and pimples!!!

I loathe getting acne. Getting acne over the age of 25 should just be biologically impossible. And my pimples and zits form in the most uncomfortable places. The edge at the bottom of my nose. The corner of my mouth. Or worse I can feel a pimple under my skin, but it won't come to a head, but it hurts. I keep putting hot water on it, hoping to draw it out, so I can pop the son of a bitch, but it continues to defy. I admit I don't get alot of acne, Thank GOD!!! But I'm almost 38, and the fact that every month about a week before my period I get some huge ass pimple somewhere on my face, neck or ears just pisses me off!!!

I also think that since I'm done having children I should just be able to tell my body to go into menopause. I shouldn't have to wait or have surgery. I should just be able to will myself into it. Life as a woman is so unfair. My brother said that it's wrong when something bleeds so much and doesn't die, of course, he was talking about his female dog, but it could apply to woman in general as well. He knew that too. That's why I got my dog fixed as soon as I could. Three females in one house PMSin' at the same time - NO WAY!!! One of us had to get fixed, I pointed to my kid, and she pointed to the dog. Plus, the dog wouldn't keep her little female pads on, she'd rip them off and up. Huge mess!!!

Now I'm off to mess with this pre-pimple. I got two this month. Aren't I blessed!