stomach pain and misery

with some relief today, i've discovered my aching belly has been due to the antibiotic i got from the dentist for the dental work i'm having done. i did not know you had to drink a full glass of water with each dose. i did see you needed to have a light snack or glass of milk with it, but since i just drink shakes i wasn't able to comply with that. my stomach has been paying the price. so now i take it with a shake and drink a full glass of water with it, i'm hoping that will do the trick. i got one more week on it and i'm miserable. i feel like i've gain 5 pounds from all the bloating, gas, runs, and pain. my stomach looks like a balloon.

if my runs don't clear up by tonight i'll have to skip weigh in. can't go there and stink up the bathroom. that would be totally gross!!! but my scale says i've lost another 3 pounds. so let's keep it going on. this adversity only strengthens me. at least that's what i keep telling myself!

Day 2 shaking it up

i've been told the first 3 days will be the hardest. during the day i can stay busy, but around 8pm it gets hard. there's so much food on tv. the commercials are just cruel. the shakes are okay. i got choc. and vanilla. i did not like the strawberry. i have to stay focused and away from food. i cannot sabtoge myself this time. i can do this. i can do this. i can do this!

my revolution has begun

went to do all the testing to get put on my medically supervised diet today and it all looks kosher. so if tomorrow's final visit with the doc goes well then wednesday i will be on a new diet. all shakes for 2 weeks then 3 shakes and then either a protein bar or soup for my other 2 meals. it'll be hard work to reprogram every bad eating habit into a good one, but i'm so sick and tired all the time and i know it's because i'm a huge fat cow...
but on the upside my metabolism is kick ass!!! who knew, this is why i probably don't weigh 500 pounds by now. i mean, i should, the way i eat. and i sit on my butt all day working at the computer. but now i venture into healthy eating habits, vegtables, fruits, lean meats, and whole grains. i find myself anxious, nervous, and on the look out for my old self to avoid all attempts of me sabatoging me. watch out old self u r going down, ya fat bitch!!!